September 14, 2024

 

5:55am

Today, (September 14th, 2024), I wish I had never woken up.

My spouse, at this very moment, resents me because his life is off rail.

My son hates me because of his speech impediment. He sends me vile messages and wishes my death.

My oldest daughter doesn't want me in her life. She doesn't speak to me.

My second daughter barely tolerates me in her life.

If this is all that I have accomplished in my life, then I have made some poor choices indeed. 

Today I wish I were dead so this pain called life would finally end.

There is only so much pain a person can take before they break.💔😭

I don't want a long drawn out sickness, just a quick ending so I don't have to be on this Earth anymore.

Sincerely, 

Tired and more tired on September 14th, 2024

I did my best to improve my birthday, to at least squeeze some joy from it. My younger brother called me, talked to me for 30 minutes, and reminded me that I am loved and necessary on this plane.